Shadow

I will cry and shoutAnd bleed and scream
To set me free and let goOf vain indignity
Grasping the concept Of "Life, Liberty, and thePursuit of Happiness"
It won't burn orEat away at my flesh
Due to mindful Misunderstanding
Let the rapid river
Of complex ideas
Drown me and helpMe
gasp for theVertuous air of glory
Realize and rebel for one right

Fall and rise...

Rise above,those who hurt you.Rise above,they who drag you down.Rise above,the narrow minded.Rise above,the enemies around you.Rise above,your own insecurities.Rise above,your self doubt.And once you rise above,you will find true happiness. ..

The Nightmare..

Trueman jumped off the bed...Trying to figure out what has been happening..Phew!...it was jus a nightmare!!!...Yes..a nightmare..so close to reality...Don't knw where it startd...but sure he could recollect where it stopped....He was standing there alone...staring at the ruins of the castle...what was it all about?...in bits and pieces...lantern..friends..tour..camp..ruins...castle......








...some sort of camping during the tour..He was there with his classmates...It was really dark out there, and the guides were screeming out the directions... Everyone with their 'Pairs'...Trueman was walking along with everyone..staring at the remains of the castle...everyone walking along with their britellite torches....it was really creepy out there .... Trueman felt somebody was following him, and he turned around ...All of a sudden there was a total blackout...everyone screemed at the top of their voice...the other set who were completely boozd were making all sorta creepy noise..

Then there was a silence...everyone seems to have vanished..somebdy was there along with Trueman...He asked the person to follow him and he moved along...climbed the steps...

He found himself standing next to a ..he wished he could see something out there in the darkness...He found himself in front of an image offering him a lantern... He took the lantern and turned around to see who was following him...There wasn't a soul there.....He turned around to see who had offered him the light..Nobdy was there as well!!.... He stood there staring around..the place looked familiar...everything looked familiar...but he couldn't make out where it was....sum sorta game challenging him to move ahead..everything around him was a clue......he stood there alone!!....wanting to knw wats happening to him...


Trueman was chasing his desire...it was his desire that followed him like a shadow...he was chasing love..is it worth chasing love?....The more he chased more he felt helpless...


He recollected what he had read read in 'Priya's blog'...

"Its not about a race or speed but a person to person who goes after another even in an unconscious mind. Some people spend their entire time after him or her just for the cause of to fall for or real emotions. People skip classes, work and what not to get what they want. When he or she is really after someone, they are in full energy until they get the answers of knowing about the other person.
They can be egoistic, self-centered and what not, but in their decision their only aim is to see the green light only. Once they get to know, then the speed of energy slows coz they feel secure and its the other person turn to keep waiting for everything. A mystery filled when you never think whatz gonna happen or a mystery filled love. Give it back with joy and not pain is what is called choosing love. Hmm love comes for a reason or season I donno, but it grows very much with pain than joy who succeed. For people who feel they lost in love, you always say, you wait for the best and you get the better or go for the girl or boy who waits for you."


Different people have their own perception...he waited all his life waiting for the girl who'd waitd for him...wats the point?...the things mentioned above did happen...it is natural to desire for more...with time..perception changes...the way she looked at him did change...is it worth chasing?...It is worth chasing only if there is some sort of perceptual constancy...
Perception is the apprehension of objects or events...& perceptual constancy is perhaps the hallmark of perception and more than any other serves to charecterize the field of perception..
Else it would result in a vicious circle....

I'm completely afraid..scared of what the world will bring..You see the thing is i'm a little scared of everything... I'm afrain to love, scared to trust....I'm scared to do, what i must...
I'm scared to be alone, afraid that it'll stay...that i'll always be alone..forever and a day....

A brave smile, one that's clearly fake..It's all hollow, but it's a distinction you don't make...Tears in my eyes, they're there..No one notices, they just don't care.. The attention diverted, someone cries..no one notices..the sadness in my eyes...

There's always a problem, someone else is sad...so i'm overlooked, with the problem i had..Unimportant, not enough for them to see...Not important enough to look...hey, this isn't me!!

My life's jus changed, and my fears have come true...i'm facing it alone..no one cars..not even you..My fears are there, they're now reality...i loved and trusted..Now you don't care for me...

A broken heart..a lost dear friend..'coz you don't care ...my fears have no end...after trying so hard, instilling confindence in You...you go and betray it..this is what you do?!..
Does no one realise?? Does no one care??...Trusting you all..is fear i can't bare....

I'm trying to love, trying to trust...But if tou don't return it..How can i do what i must?? How can i let you in?..How can i try at all??...If i'm not sure..you'll catch me when i fall??....

Trueman always is forced to think this way...y??...many a times the world is cruel...But there are better people ofcourse...Even them...the trueman feels are only actors...the worlds a stage..a big stage..trueman feels like a scared five year old...all ovr again...craving for attention...someone to to care- Because they WANT to... he doesn't want to b alone ever again...

This world is full of colors..mischiefs..joy..sorrow..love..hatred....Being in the company of people keeps you busy enough not to think about your actions, your thoughts, and finally you...The one thing you always learn the hardway. When everyone deserts you, you have you and only you...Oh yes.there is God...But hows is it when you feel the worlds revolving all around you and Gods being played by somebody?.....Thats what is all about being true man...

In everyone's life at some point or the other, you realize you are a trueman. Being trueman is natural 'coz the world doesn't have time for you...nobody waits for you...Being trueman leaves you time to think why is it happening..hows it happening...and for what is it happening...you won't get answers to all your questions..but you do get answers....that is how being trueman begins....